This just won’t fade, will it?
I honestly thought I’d be able to make it. We never really were “anything” but at the same time… You were everything. I’d love to be able to go back to a month ago, before things changed. I know that’s not going to happen though; and I thought I could handle that. You’re so far away, it’d be like nothing ever changed. But everything did. And it still is. This typical teenage heartbreak is everything you read about in the books… Everything is reminding me of you, silly love songs are bringing me to tears, you’re consuming my thoughts. It’s getting so much harder to breathe. The song says “Hold your head high, heavy heart” and now I know that feeling, but cannot possibly hold my head high when it feels like a heavy burden to lift my chest for a normal breath of air. I hate this. I’ve been through heartbreak before, and it faded pretty fast… That must not have been real then. Because this hurts like hell. And it’s only getting worse.
